Sunday, October 17, 2010

open

i've had the words 'live vulnerably with Father' going round and round in my heart the last several months. i know there are still painful places in me that i just as soon no one poke around in (particularly *God* [calling Him that makes Him, in my mind, the emotionally distant, angry Being i grew up with for some reason. i hear *Father* so very differently]) - because that just might mean some more pain 1) looking at that stuff in the light, and 2) having it dealt with.

then i remember He is Father and that He is Love and Gentleness and Kindness and Mercy, not angry and distant and unmoved by my plight - and that Love holds me and keeps me from falling to pieces while the pain is uncovered and healing brought.

i am learning to know and rely on Love...


and to live with arms open...

and to trust the holding power of Love when it hurts.

2 comments:

John Morris said...

I like your opening to this comment of yours Kelly. To learn to live vulnerably is something you have articulated in such a way that I have placed the word surrender in its place.

If one surrenders to God you are making yourself open to his blessings and Grace so that you can walk in mercy, hope, love, peace and joy. While these things are so, we can become more hurt, more open to abuse. Why is this so?

It is so simply because that is what God's son did as a human. It goes someway to help us to understand the words of our Lord and Saviour we he said "Forgive them for they know not what they do".

A great deal of personal hurt may come from the harm we do to ourselves (as a temple of the Living God)... we appear to have difficulty in being obedient to our Father. By being open we also allow ourselves to the abuse of others. With this in mind, I suspect that we all struggle with not only forgiving those who have hurt us but ourselves as well.

Does God suffer? Yes he suffers in our heart and mind for he knows the things that we encounter and perhaps as we realise this we may feel or get a richer understanding of why we read that God in our supernatural life will experience no more pain, no more grief etc all because God has been suffering with his Saints as they walk the planet Earth.

This is the way I think God indentifies with his much loved children. God Bless.

John Morris said...

A CORRECTION: This paragraph should read this way...

Does God suffer? Yes he suffers in our heart and mind for he knows the things that we encounter and perhaps as we realise this we may feel or get a richer understanding of why we read that God in our supernatural life has decreed that we will eternally experience no more pain, no more grief etc all because God has been continually suffering with his Saints as they walk the planet Earth.